
Anxiety and responsibilities set me down on the ledge of my life.
I save myself with exercise, yoga, and reading.


We have the capacity to feel energetic all the time. You don’t need chemicals or a special diet. We are naturally full of energy. The reason we lack energy is because we create blocks which stem from our ego.*
For example, let’s say you wake up in a great mood. You go to work, full of energy. You want to make this an outstanding day! You plan on getting a lot done. A client calls you, berates you and demands some of his money back. Now you feel indignant against this person. You take what he says personally and call him names (after you hang up the phone). How dare he demand things outside of the contract? How dare he accuse you of trying to pull a fast one?
You run your fingers through your hair. You don’t feel like moving forward because you’ve lost the energy to get a lot done today. You just want to fume and you walk to your boss’ office to complain and have someone agree with you.
There goes a day of productivity.
If you want to maintain your energy, you need to clear the blockages. Don’t take things personally, don’t feed your ego’s desire to vent and draw attention to itself. Let the drama go. You can choose to go with the problems, ego and power drain, or choose to remain energetic.

When I was very young (maybe five years old), my mother made rings out of dandelions. She’d pluck the weed and create a knot with the stem and, smiling, put the ring on my finger. I felt special and lucky. Within hours, the dandelion wilted, the yellow flowers tinged with brown. It was my first lesson of impermanence.
We were poor and a part of me knew it, but mostly, I was blissfully ignorant. I reveled in the smell of burning wood in the Iowa autumn. I loved the dandelion rings my mother made and I loved watching “The Muppets” on TV. All of this was (relatively) free. I thought everyone had a father who came home exhausted and discouraged. I thought everyone shared one bathroom in their family. I thought everyone fought over money.
I’m a lot older now and I have learned this: wishing for “stuff” always leads to disappointment. Nothing you can buy will deliver anywhere near the satisfaction of smelling burning wood on a Midwest autumn evening, or watching the “Muppets” on a chilly Halloween night or wearing a dandelion ring your mother makes just for you.
Nothing.

You’re waiting in line at the (fill in the blank: post office, grocery store, gas station).
Do you grab your phone and surf the ‘net? Do you get on Facebook? Do you sigh and impatiently monitor the line, wishing you were somewhere else?
An alternative activity: sit with your eyes closed. Breathe in. Breathe out. Feel sensation in your hands, feet, stomach. Want a sample of nirvana? Ask yourself, “I wonder what my next thought will be?” And wait. The moment that follows, where you mind is completely blank, that is complete peace of mind.*

Everyone I know has an electronic device. Some use it for work only and they put it away so they can spend time with their families, exercise, and enjoy nature. Some are in front of their device all day and most of the night.
A good question to ask yourself (besides “Am I on my screen too much?“) is, “Am I changing because of my screen time, or am I making a change in the world using my screen time?”
Are you an active user or a passive user? Are you controlling it or is it controlling you?

This morning, as Ava prepared to leave for her school math competition, she said, “It’s weird to go to a competition without my violin.”
I laughed.
But now I’m kicking myself. She has a violin lesson afterwards.
Heavy sigh.
#homedetour, #moremiles, #moretime, #losingmymind

Today, I attended a professional conference because someone believes in me and submitted my name. I felt fortunate all day.
While I was leaving the parking lot, one of the attendees knocked on my window.
“You have a flat tire. Do you want me to help you?”
I wish I could have waved him away, but I’ve never changed one.
“Yes, please. Oh thank you,” I was embarassed.
He took the tire off after much struggling.
Another attendee (who was fortunate enough to park right next to me), offered his assistance, as well.
Long story short, I made it to Discount Tire. They gave me a loaner while my new tire makes its way to me by Monday.
I was able to call my friend for help. She picked my daughters up from school and deposited them in time to the optometrist.
Angels. All four: the mentor, the two samaritans and my friend.
There is negativity in the air, no doubt. But there are good people everywhere. If those two gentlemen had not helped me, someone would have come by. I know it.We all have friends who will come to our aid in times of need.
Let’s be grateful. There are more good people than not.

What do you think life is? Your answer will tell alot about you and how you live your life.
Is life a game? Are there winners and losers? Are you trying to win? This philosophy always reminds me of the quote:
“The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you‘re still a rat.” – Lily Tomlin
I consider life to be an adventure. You simply can’t predict what will happen, but you can go forth with an attitude of openness and wonder. Embrace what comes to you and know that everything (“good” or “bad”) is temporary.

The world is a vast, vast place
Our lives are short, relatively speaking
Keep a wide perspective,
Don’t focus on the small
Do you want to be remembered for your immaculate car and house?
Are you really going to get upset about traffic and a rude co-worker or boss?
Or…do you want to leave a legacy of love and passion?
What you focus on grows.

Yes, she can.
Motivation is tricky. You have to have several factors present, including:
What are you motivated to achieve?