From one of my 5th graders who feels my pain…
But THIS is my monkey and my circus.
From the Domestika Course: Illustration Techniques to Unlock Your Creativity. I chose dog and rollerskating because I love both.
You’re looking at f***ing determination and truth and creativity. You’re looking at loss and sorrow and the effort for a deeper perspective. You’re looking at satisfaction and happiness. You’re looking at a manifestation of a connection so deep and rooted that it’s more real than I am. You’re looking at my face.*
FACE: One Square Foot of Skin by Justine Bateman
My 5th graders found a Black Widow spider in the back yard of the school. It was the first time I saw one in person! Beautiful.
It’s four months past my goal date. Spent 3 months trying to create the hardcover. Finally hired a Fiverr artist to collate my art and the template. Took her one day. 😛
This was fun. Faces are always so hard for me. But Puno on Domestika teaches it well. The one on the right was my first. The older gentleman was my third. Doing the half-face exercise reduced the stress of making it symmetrical.
Didn’t get to a museum per instructions, but I found this on the deYoung Museum website.
The sun started to go down and they headed home.
“Want to work on the rainforest project tomorrow after school?” Lily asked.
“Yes! That’ll be fun!”
After eating dinner, Kevin worked on his homework. He didn’t even think of his channel, subscriptions, likes, or dislikes.
Focusing on his math, he understood it and completed all of his homework. Fatigued, he fell into an easy, deep sleep.
I’ve finished my illustrations for Kevin and His YouTube Channel (just have to do cover art).
So back to all the classes I purchased on Domestika. 🙂
Crawls through the pipes and onto the countertop. Nasty. Is it the legs? Thoughts of disease?
“And look over here!” Lily motioned him over.
There, lying in the grass, was a baby elephant napping in the grass.
They reached the creek. The sky was blue, the air was crisp, and birds were singing in the trees.
“Kevin, come, look.”
He peered into the water. There were tadpoles in the creek..
Kevin’s spirits lifted and he felt excited again.
Well?” Kevin pushed.
Lily put her food down.
“You might start with asking yourself why the opinion of strangers means so much more to you than your own opinion of yourself.”
Kevin was speechless.
Kevin joined Lily for lunch at her house. They ate in silence until…
“Nothing’s going right,” Kevin moaned.
Lily waited for him to continue.
“My grades are in the toilet, my YouTube channel is in the toilet and I am in the toilet!”
Lily looked him in the eyes and listened.
Kevin wanted her to say something, but he realized that there was nothing for her to say.
“What do you think I should do?”
“Are you feeling Ok?” asked Mr. Dennis.
“No, not really,” Kevin replied weakly.
“You didn’t do well on the test, Kevin. That’s not like you.”
“I know and I feel terrible. I didn’t study. I really messed up.”
Edgy from lack of sleep, low in energy from poor diet, and frustrated with himself, Kevin sulked.
Lily realized Kevin just wanted to pout and work on his channel, so she went home.
For the next few hours, Kevin watched YouTube tutorials on how to record himself playing video games. Then he had to learn how to play one. Finally, he recorded himself playing the video game and posted it. Anxiously, he checked the number of his subscribers, likes, and dislikes.
Three followers! He gained two! But he also had only 3 likes and ten dislikes.
It was late, but he wasn’t sleepy. What to do? How to get people to like his channel and subscribe? He laid in bed thinking and thinking. He fell asleep only to wake suddenly in the middle of the night.
He forgot to study.
He refreshed again. He sighed.
“OK, I have one like and one dislike. Five views. No subscribers.”
“C’mon, Kevin. Let’s work on the rainforest. Check it later.” Lily moved on to the sloths. Sloths are so cute, she thought.
Kevin felt sick to his stomach. He felt humiliated, sad, and out of control. His heart was beating out of his little chest – he had to do something. But what?
As he molded the toucans, his mind was on his channel. Why don’t people like me?
“What now? Want to work on our rainforest project?” Lily asked.
“Um, OK,” Kevin said distractedly.
As Lily worked on the insects, Kevin refreshed his YouTube page. Lily could see Kevin was stressed. He was turning red.
“Look! Look! I have 4 views!”
Lily looked at his screen. Indeed, there were four views. Kevin refreshed.
“What? One dislike?! A thumbs down?”
Lily went back to her insect-making. “Our video was great. Ignore the dislikes.”
“Ignore? How can I ignore that? I don’t even have any likes!” Kevin wondered how the other three views garnered no reaction.
“Yes, it’s perfectly fine.”
“You don’t think we need to do it over?”
“No, but we can if you want to.”
“If you say it’s fine. I’ll go with it.” Kevin just wanted to get it over with. This wasn’t as fun as he thought it would be.
He uploaded the video onto YouTube.
In his kitchen, Kevin nervously moved furniture and set his phone against a bowl on the counter.
“So I thought you could go to the refrigerator and take the cake out. I’ll come by and say, ‘Wait! Don’t you want a better snack?’ and I’ll hand you some carrots.”
“OK,” Lily waited for her cue.
“I’ll ask Lily. I bet she’ll be in my videos with me.”
Kevin walked home with his tail between his legs. His dream of being loved by thousands or hundreds of people was fading. He was tired of being ordinary.
He wanted to be special.
This wasn’t what Kevin expected at all. He thought they’d be as excited as him. A cloud of doubt began to form in his head and in his heart.
He tried to push it away.
“I don’t have to be the expert on any of those topics. I just need to make it entertaining to watch.” He thought of Nastya and how he didn’t find it particularly captivating, but…190 subscribers sure did!
“Meh, no thanks,” Carlos said.
“Yeah, I don’t want to be on YouTube,” Minji concurred.
Kevin was bewildered.
“You don’t want to be in my videos with me?”
Carlos and Minji looked at each other.
“I’ll subscribe to it. I just don’t want to be in it,” Minji said gingerly.
“Yeah, me too. I’ll subscribe to it, Kevin.” Carlos kicked the ball to Minji and they continued down the field.
Kevin watched more videos featured on “Top YouTube Videos” of the week.
There were video game reviewers…
Truth or Dare players…
And World Wrestling Entertainers